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Sunday, November 25, 2007

Proof that I am not Dead

Seeing as it's been almost a year (actually, just under 11 months) I thought I'd let the world know that I'm still alive and kicking. Among other things, the economic collapse isn't bothering me yet, and life continues on in the new normal with housework, research, reading and the like. And walks to the post office. If I wait to mail letters until after the mail arrives at the house, I have an excuse to get outside and make the nine block round trip. So there you have it.



For those of you who actually read this...my life lately, though hectic and bordering on helter-skelter, hasn't really been much to blog about, unless you like those diary style entries. And I don't want to write one of those...so. I guess we're in trouble.


Thursday, October 04, 2007

Tuwshiyah: A Fairy Tale

I wrote this story for Tierney, for her birthday, but she's read it now, so I'm sharing it with the rest of the world. It's a little...strange.

Long ago, or perhaps not so very long, in a country so far distant that one must cross seven seas to reach it, there lived a very wise, very old king, whose beard was as white as the snow on the mountains. He ruled over a wide land, a good land of laughing streams and rushing rivers, steep hills and wide valleys, abundant pasture and fruitful fields. He ruled well, and his subjects loved him; even his enemies did not trouble him.

He lived in a castle made of gray stone, with soaring turrets and thick walls. It was set on a hill in the middle of his country. And he had two possessions for which he was famed, the one, a white jewel of such brilliance that when the light struck it, it could not be looked upon, and which, in the night, still shone as if lit by a fire inside, and men called it the Star of Irealis. The second was his daughter, a young woman of such beauty and grace that she far surpassed all her peers, and she had many suitors.

To every suitor her father said the same thing, that they must bring him a second star like the Star of Irealis, and that they must also tell him what the significance of the stars was. At these words many of them were immediately discouraged, and said the king asked a thing which was impossible. Some indeed set out to find it, but after weeks or months of wandering they gave up as well.

One day, nearly a year after the last suitor had left in despair, another young prince showed up on the king’s drawbridge. He and his horse were covered with dust, but though they were obviously weary, there was still a spring in the young man’s step as he approached the king and knelt before him.

The king bid him rise, and asked him what his purpose was.

“I wish to seek after a second star, and find it’s meaning, and also , if I succeed, to have your daughter’s hand in marriage,” he answered.

The king was pleased with the prince’s words, for by his speech it seemed as if, at long last, a man stood before him who might fulfill the quest. So that night and the next day the king bade him rest, and he showed him the Star of Irealis, that he might know it’s likeness. Upon seeing it the prince exclaimed, “Surely a stone like this must be well guarded, or yet hidden deep in the earth!”

The king smiled, a little sadly.

“My son,” he said, “This treasure will not be found under lock and key. It is fee to all who wish to find it.”

“Than why have not many claimed it before?” the prince asked.

“Few truly desire it,” the old man answered, sighing deeply. “Many give up in their search for it, or look in the wrong places. Others become distracted from their search, while some are satisfied with counterfeits which are worse than trinkets in comparison.”

“How did you find it?” the prince asked, for he was somehow quite certain that the king had found this

jewel,.

A small smile began to form at the corners of the king’s sad face. “By looking for it,” he answered. “By asking questions. You are well begun."

"Where should I look for it?"

askin

The king’s eyes had begun to twinkle. “In a high place,” he said. “Now, that is all the questions you may ask of me now. Tomorrow you must begin your search.”

That night the prince lay awake for many hours. ‘What is high?’ he wondered to himself. ‘A tree? A tower? The mast of a ship? The clouds? The mountains, the sky itself? Can one reach the sky and pluck down a star?’

At last he decided to look on the mountains, and as the sun broke the horizon it found him already awake and riding West toward the highest mountain he knew of, where he was determined to climb to the peak in search of the jewel.

It took him a week and a day to reach the mountain, and along the way he met many people and spoke to them about the jewel. A few knew tales which said there were still such stars to be found, but some said they were in caves, some said they were well guarded, some that they rained from the sky, and only one made mention of the mountains. But he persevered in his chosen path, mostly because of what the king had said; he was the only one with a star.

The climb up the chosen mountain was hard. Many times the prince had to dismount his horse because the ascent was so hard and finally, about half way up, he had to leave the animal behind, hoping that there were no cougar or bear in the nearby vicinity. Already the air grew cold, so he took all the warmest things he could find. Beside that, he took only his sword and what food he could carry.

As the sky turned to night he began to stumble. Twice he lost his footing, taking nasty falls, before he decided he ought to stop for the night, or else he would break his neck. As he sat shivering against a moss covered rock, he began to wonder if his search was worth the trouble. He was cold and sore, and had nothing to lead him except the king’s assurance that the jewel was in a high place- and fifty other conflicting reports. All this bother could very well be for nothing. And then he remembered the king’s words: “Many give up...others are distracted.” Wryly he mused to himself that a path like this would lend itself to giving up, or distraction, but he decided to maintain his course.

The next afternoon, after a day of tiresome, but steady climbing, he was nearing the peak of the mountain. He heard a voice calling to him. It sounded like a woman’s voice, and, turning toward it, he saw an old woman, coming out of a hollow in the rock.

“Come here, come here!” she cried. “Come here!”

Stupefied by the presence of another human on the mountain, and an elderly woman with a red shawl at that, he went to her. She stood beaming up at him. “

“You have come for the white stone!” she exclaimed. She seemed very excited as she continued, “Not many make it this far. Come in, come in! I am the keeper of the white stone, and I will show you what you seek!”The prince hesitated, and she seized his hand, pulling him toward an opening in the rock. “Come with me, and I will show you the white stone!”

So he followed her, for she seemed a harmless old woman, though her grip was strong, and he kept his free hand by his sword, for he had heard too many tales of the underworld not to have some qualms about this descent into the earth, and a warning began to sound in his head, that he was no longer going towards the high places.

The tunnels were dark and winding, but she pulled him without a pause until they reached a chamber, and there, on a table, surrounded by six candles, was a round white rock that glistened faintly in the light.

“Behold!” she cried, “The White Stone!”

‘Some are satisfied with counterfeits, worse than trinkets.’ The words flashed into his mind, and he wrenched his hand from the woman’s grasp.

“It is a lie!” he exclaimed. “It is not what I seek! I shall leave.”

She laughed. “Do you think it will be so easy?” As she spoke six large hairy shapes, he could not tell if they were men or beasts, pulled away from the wall and into the candlelight. They began to close their circle in on him. The prince drew his sword and bolted toward the door, cutting down one of the creatures as he fled.

“Even if you leave this room, you will never find your way!” Shrill words followed by ringing laughter and snarls pushed him through the entrance. He was swift on his feet, but he stumbled often. A beast caught him by the cloak, but he dispatched it and ran on.. Then the tunnel split. He remembered no intersections,, though the way in had been serpentine. He should have known which way to go, but he could not think- he would have sworn there were no branchings on the way in. He must have not have noticed. His thoughts ran on, desperately fast. The laughter grew louder, clearer. It was closer, and footsteps, or was it paw steps? Echoed through the tunnel. He could not dream what that evil woman’s plans for him were, but it seemed he would soon find out. In desperation he cried aloud, “Oh, Lord, give me wisdom! Show me the way!” and before his plea had faded a light shone in front of him and to the right. He sprang for it., even as he felt hot, putrid breath upon his neck. A sound of rage came from behind him- the prey was gone.

The light moved as fast as he could run uphill, and in a few minutes the hideous sounds were left behind him, and he had come out into the fading daylight. He ran several hundred feet more, then turned and faced downhill towards the place he had come from. He was trembling, and gasping for air, but he was safe.

With a prayer of thanks he resheathed his sword and made his way on. The moon was full that night so that even as the sun diminished the moonlight showed him his path across the glittering snow. He kept looking back. He did not know where he was going, only that he must reach the top of the mountain. He wondered what light it was that had guided him out of his earlier danger.

Some hours later he reached the summit of the mountain, and there, to his delight, on a little table made of stone, on little cushion made of velvet, and so bright that it almost blinded him to look at it, was a stone that seemed to be a star because of the glory of its shining. He advanced toward it, hesitant, and as he came nearer he found that he could look at it still, and that it was exactly like the Star of Irealis. He reached out to touch it.

“Welcome.” The woman’s voice was soft, but on hearing it he almost jumped out of his skin, and his hand went to the hilt of his sword. She came to him from behind the table and laid her hand on his arm, gently. Then he was that although she too was old, as the first woman, that she was not the same.

“Welcome,” she said again. “You seek the stone.”

“Yes,” he choked out. For he was awed by her, and yet he felt he loved here, though she might have been a thousand years old.

“What does it mean to you, this stone?” she asked.

The quest, a marriage, adventure, curiosity...somehow every reason seemed diminished in the light of that stone, a light that reflected on the woman’s white hair, on the snowy ground, and radiated into the icy air.

“I, I,” he stammered. “want it because- for itself- because it is a beautiful thing. It was a gift to me in my need, and now...”

“Slowly,” she said. “What is the meaning of this stone?”

He was nearly ready to pull his hair out. “It means my life! Without it I would have died already and how shall I live without it any longer?”

“You speak truth,” she said. “It is the Jewel of Wisdom, without which your life will be as nothing. It was for wisdom that you called in your need, and you were sent wisdom to light your way. And now, having diligently sought it, you shall be given wisdom. It is a most precious possession, and it’s value cannot be diminished. Use it well.”

She placed the shining jewel in his hands, and when he looked up again, she was gone.

He made his way back down the mountain, and to the king’s castle, and on the way he had many adventures, some more harrowing than others, but all the way he was guided by wisdom and kept from harm, so that at long last he stood before the old, snowy bearded king once again. There he showed him the star, and told him its meaning, so that the king was well pleased, and gave him his daughter as wife, and when the king died the kingdom passed to him and his descendants, and they ruled it well.

 

THE END


Sunday, August 12, 2007

Well, I'm a little disappointed in how the flowers are focused, but over all I think this is a cheerier place than it was a few minutes ago.

This is a cheery picture for you, just to ruin the mood. If you haven't been here for awhile, read the next post down. It's a little more informative about my life. Or skedaddle, it doesn't matter much, I guess. Adios.


Saturday, August 11, 2007

A Diary Style Entry. How Dull.

Yep, I'm gonna tell you about my day, and quite possibly bore your socks off in the process, unless, like me, you're running around in bare (and dirty) feet. To bore you in as concise a manner as possible I shall begin immediately.
First, I got up around 5:45 am. Not too bad, except I'm still not caught up from vacation. And with what I've been eating today, I'll probably get sick.
After getting up, three brothers, my Grandma, and I went to the local abortion mill to protest. We had to leave a bit earlier than usual in order to make it home by 8, which was when we had to leave for the Ames straw poll. And yeah, now all my stalkers know I'm from Iowa, and you know what else? I've got brothers who will...ok, never mind. Anyway, before we got the mill we stopped at a QT and I got a huge iced cappuccino. Them things are great.
My apologies for the vernacular, by the way. I'm a bit weirder tonight than usual. Maybe.
It was a drive to Ames. What else would it be? We were there for what seemed like a long time. Not necessarily in a bad way, but still long. I sat down about 5-10 minutes during the five or so hours we were there. Of course, other people were doing the same thing. It was hot. You do not want to know...we won't go there. Let's just say that by the end of the day, if there wasn't someone drenched in sweat they must've had really, really low thyroid, or been dead, or been sitting in the shade, or, or...something. To ward off heat stroke while holding giant Ron Paul for President signs at an intersection I drank three bottles of water and one of lemonade. While at this intersection my partners and I saw various interesting vehicles and people. And we talked to some guy who was an evolutionist, and holding signs with us. He was interesting, and about as polite as I've seen them, so I asked for his address, and maybe we can dialog. (Dialog doesn't look right, but that's what spell check says.) And then we voted, and got our thumbs stamped pink, and then we went and got some food. They were out of hot dogs already (David had 5- when he told me on the way back I went 'FIVE!!' and woke someone who was napping up.) so I just had a bun. And a snow cone. And we held signs for a little while yet, and then came home, where I had pretty much the first real food of the day- two slices of pizza, two (or three) glasses of milk, and a dish of ice cream. So that was my day, and my menu, and if you can't figure out why I'm gonna get sick, between sugar and sleep deprivation...then...oh never mind.


Saturday, July 21, 2007

The Good, the Right, and the Humanistic

"I'm an idealist," the young man proclaimed. "I want good for the most people." He was confident, self assured, as he continued to declare his position on illegal immigrants. "I can't send people back to a country where they'll be impoverished."
"They can get around that. They have a door to get here legally," another person pointed out.
The young man didn't seem to get it. He continued to espouse amnesty and idealism. I listened with interest. I'm not for impoverishing people, but I'm not for rewarding lawbreakers and encouraging criminal activity either.
I never varied from my position that 'illegal' means 'against the law', yet I have to admit that the rhetoric of idealism sounds appealing. How could you not want good for people? How could you send them away from their dream to return to a nightmare?
As I turned the young man's views over in my brain on the drive home, I came to this realization: in his quest for good he had forgotten the right. It's funny how often these two are divorced as people, even Christians, as this young man claimed to be, evaluate issues by their feelings instead of by a higher law. He was an idealist, he was not a 'Biblicist'. As such he was concerned more with people's physical comfort than their moral wrong.
But without right and wrong, how can we have good and bad? In the Biblical world view, 'right' and 'good' are linked. But this young man, though he professed to be a Christian, was speaking on humanistic premises. He was an idealist. He could not see putting people into poverty. He did not think 'In God We Trust' should be on our money, for the atheists' sake. His reasoning all came down to man and man's version of good, either his own, or someone else's. "Good" was no longer objective. It had been separated from law (right) and become a feeling.
This philosophy isn't new. It goes all the way back to the garden of Eden. where "...when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of it's fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate." (Gen 3:6) The woman judged what was good by her senses and feelings, even though God had laid down the law. In disobeying the law she got the tasty fruit, and yet it was anything but good in the end, because what she'd done was wrong. Without obedience to the law (ultimately God's) any 'good' we can come up with is paltry and ultimately harmful. For anything to be truly good, it must first be right.
 
~Our pastor, who was talking to this young man about the 'In God We Trust' issue, is, to me, pretty amazing. He is so patient with people when he's discussing things with them, even though they interrupt him; he follows their lead, and doesn't force them to stay on an issue when he could 'catch' them- in short, today he was more respectful of a guy thirty years or so his junior, then that guy was of him, and he's an example to me about how to treat the people I talk things over with.



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